I'm spending my time filling out prompts I find on the internet and drinking coffee by the gallon. I'm inspired but at the same time I'm completely uninspired. I spend a lot of time thinking about how I can get better but instead of sitting down to write i'm sitting down to make lists. My words aren't coming out right and it's really frustrating. I'm always trying to force it. Always forcing it. It's wrong and it feels weird and the words don't sound right when I re-read them.